The Secret Life of Grubs
This is a series of drawings I made in 2013. The drawings are of grubs and insects, transforming, hiding, and emerging from underground. Some of the grubs are safe, some are in danger—there are monsters lurking in some of the drawings. There are flowers and bees and feeding and resting. There is aggression and attack and there is safety and containment.
The drawings are all made with ballpoint pen on individual pages of lined notebook paper cut from a notebook. As soon as I finished a drawing, I numbered it, put it in a folder, and then immediately cut the next piece of paper and began to draw again. I did not look back at or review the drawings during the four month period I was working. Each drawing took between six – thirteen hours to make, depending on the complexity of the individual design. The drawings have a real physical presence, the paper distorted and reshaped by the weight of the pen—they resemble dry fall leaves.
Each drawing is 7-1/2” by 9-3/4”. Ballpoint pen on lined notebook paper.
01 - Left out in the rain
02 - Complicated, know what I mean?
03 - Energy from the husks
04 - Inside the cave
05 - Chlorophyll, cozy inside stem
06 - Attached and feeding
07 - Reaching for the surface with husks
08 - Caught, not upset though
09 - Floating with shadows
10 - Arteries of dirt
11 - It will be hard to leave
12 - Rain storm, sleeping and cozy
13 - Persons with ladders--why escape?
14 - Deep sleep and transformation
15 - Curled, darkness close by
16 - Do not have what I need
17 - Family with shadows and ghosts
18 - Sad or just necessary?
19 - Dreaming of past, future, resting
20 - Meeting, singing
21 - Will they move again?
22 - Which one is my favorite?
23 - What a mess!
24 - Family with emanations
25 - Gall with grub, weak heart
26 - Nightmare with persons and shadows
27 - Tiny grub, small stem
28 - Nightmare with shadows and eggs
29 - Nightmare with laughing shadows
30 - Three grubs, one stem, three shadows
31 - Transformation through suffering
32 - Cave of grubs, each with a story
33 - Flower with grub at center
34 - Death with visitors
35 - Death with witnesses
36 - Thinking of death
37 - Staying or leaving
38 - Grubs and accomplices with shadows
39 - Communicating with pheromones
40 - Me and my spirit
41 - Nightmare with grubs and monsters
42 - Nightmare with husks and jars
44 - Mother and children with nightmare shadows
45 - Mother and child in gall
46 - Mother and child deep in the earth
47 - Carried by sorrow
48 - Emerging into a nightmare
49 - Chaos! Sensation of pulling and tugging
50 - The flower understands
51 - Fruit and seeds with audience
52 - In danger of falling
53 - Indifferent circumstance
54 - Trapped, surrounded
55 - Me? Safe, tucked inside, invisible
56 - Rain of despair - are we protected?
57 - Everyone is rubbernecking!
58 - Friendly, not hungry
59 - Expressway, everything balanced
60 - Deep inside the hive
61 - Witnesses, petals, cluster close by
62 - Show business, on stage
63 - Infestation, petals witnessing
64 - Energy and accommodation
65 - Everyone has intentions
66 - Underground workmanship
67 - Monster invisible? Digestion, working
68 - Little victims are sanguine, content
69 - Complicated hairdo, resting in embrace - delightful!
70 - Spinning out in his dark world
71 - Surrounded by admirers
72 - Trippy, monster has fed
73 - If you get swallowed, just settle in
74 - Even in the winter, even when asleep
75 - Wait to find out
76 - On stage with ghosts and balloons
77 - All this escaping, keep a closer watch
78 - Raging battle, wait it out
79 - Self portrait with hemispheres and synapses
80 - Try to let it out
81 - Fed by empty, hungry for everything
82 - Too bad the prisoners are gone
83 - Standing on two skinny legs
84 - Let me hold you up
85 - Bee swirly
86 - Trying to filter
87 - Filtration system or jello mold, you decide
88 - Standing, satisfied
89 - Pockets of dark with somersaults
90 - Effort, not always successful
91 - Why not celebrate? Look, how nice!
92 - Bare but finished, brain aching
93 - Bees, please don't worry
94 - Flowers and bees
95 - Give up, always an option
96 - Down for the count
97 - If your brain aches, hold on tight
98 - Self portrait with hemispheres and synapses 2
99 - Dark monster with armpits
100 - Highways of commerce
101 - Self portrait with hemispheres and synapses 3